How I Beat my Eating Disorder

Email To a Friend 19 June 2009 My name is Jenny and I wasn’t aware that I had an issue until I was confronted today by a guidance counsellor at my University. I was pulled into the office today and was asked if I was okay and if there was anything that I wanted to get off my chest. I was told that my weight has been a recent concern of both students and faculty.

I was originally 5ft 4inch but within two years have grown to 5ft 9inch. I don’t understand why I’ve been going through such a growth spurt at the age of 18, but I have noticed that my hips and breasts have just begun to sprout as well. I must admit that two years ago, at 5ft 4inch I weighed in at 150 pounds which I guess would be considered fleshy.

During this unexpected growth spurt, I have been kind of starving myself. With the pressure of finals, I would only eat when I felt like I was about to faint then I would eat half a plate of food. Now I weigh 98 pounds and I’m really not sure if I even have a problem.
I am very content with the way I look and feel as though I could possibly have more weight to lose. Of course I didn’t tell my counsellor all of this but I am undecided.

I have been able to fit into all of the clothes that I wish I could have worn in secondary school. Unfortunately the University called my parents at work this afternoon and I received a call on my mobile phone. They want to have a family meeting when I get home and I am scared of what they have to say. I don’t know what to do!

Everyone has been making such a big deal about my weight lately and I wish everyone would just mind their business. I did confide in one of my friends. I told her about all of the conflict that I had internally and how I feel like such a stranger in my own skin.
Maybe one of these days I will feel comfortable about my body, but until then, let me go home to see what my parents have to say about me. I was given a confidential number by my counsellor at school and I think I might just give them a call. I don’t think that there is anyone that could understand how I feel, especially my parents.

Jenny Walsh, Scunthorpe.

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